Broken Glass

Broken glass once use to be
The wonderful friendship that once surrounded me
With art so fine that you couldn’t believe
Which now is stated as a once use to be
On my shelf in would sit
Never did I think I would feel such and awful hit
Like my heart it would beat
I never thought that our love would ever fleet
It looked so magnificent way up there
Made me feel the warmth in the air

Broken glass on my floor
Never has my heart felt such a blow
Never have I felt helpless as that night
I can’t believe I didn’t put up a fight
There use to be a promise of thing will always be alright
So this was where I let the fire ignite
Then lost your soul in the darkness of the night
Guess this thing we use to call “love” wasn’t meant to be
& everything we use to feel is at the bottom of the sea
But they’re all burn and ruined from the fire in a very harsh degree
This all just means we were never meant to be

Broken glass pierces my skin
As I try to pieced back together the feelings I have within
It hurts so much to hold to pieces together
But I’d hold on forever if it meant we’d be back together.
Exactly as I drift away to the memories we ounce shared
Reality hits me to remind me that we were never prepared
For everything the future brought and the feeling of overwrought
Now it’s game of cat and dog we biker at each other as the feeling are gone
The once beautiful friend ship we shared is now a war I’ve declared
I hope you feel what we once and sulk in the sorrow of what’s not there

Broken glass now confineds me
Im trapped in as I don’t want to set our friendship free

Hearts Turning to Stone

Its more than vital that we stay friends

cause I don’t want to find out what happeneds in the end

so we’ll sing our songs of joy and fear

only for the darkness of the night to bring us to tears

I’ve been so close and now I feel distance

Emotions are described in the past tense

When everything’s been said & done

Packed our backs & fought our wars

All there’s left is the hearts turning to stone

I recall all the sleepless nights we’ve spent

All I do now I miss my friend

You were more than the brightness to fill my days

You were the reason my tears would fade

There was nothing in the world I wouldn’t do for you

Cause if I don’t have you I have nothing left to lose

When everything’s been said & done

Packed our backs & fought our wars

All there’s left is the hearts turning to stone

I see you slipping and falling through

But I don’t think there’s nothing left to do

If it wasn’t for all the stories I hear

There would be no acknowledgement of these fears

You use to say it all and not think twice

But everything you do now is not all wise

I’m afraid for what to future might bring

For all I know it might break us down more than anything

When everything’s been said & done

Packed our backs & fought our wars

All there’s left is the hearts turning to stone

Now we’ve fought our wars & fought the tears

But now I’m afraid the “goodbyes” are near

So now ill sing this song about my “friend” to you

& wonder if you know its all regarding YOU too

getting it out?

I think with everything going on people have come to underestimate the power of words.The phrase "action speaks louder than words" has a similar concept it too has the holdings of power that many people underestimate.Recently Ive been on a whole "live every minute like your last" thing. Appreciate the "simple things"<3 because this moment right now can never be taken back and time is very powerful we should us it carefully.Spending it with love ones having amazing memories just anything that makes your heart jump up and down with joy.If that's so we do we take so much time out of our lives time we never get back on being negative about things odds are it wont change so there really isn't a point in complaining,most of the time the things you consider amazingly huge and such a disturbance could really be nothing at all when you compare it to something terrible like a death.

Okay so basically this blog pretty much switched ideas while i was writing this...
MAIN POINT people should watch what they say words can hurt especially when its by a love one....People have forgotten how powerful words are and they DO hurt which sucks ass when your trying to have a happy life because once this moment is gone you wont get it back but its pretty hard to keep a smile on with with everything that's begin said

So basically this was me "getting it out" because there's crap when i speak and more crap wen i don't so either way im stuck with crap so instead of saying what i say and people inturpting them different ways im gonna write well i did write and that can be inturpurtive too ohh well....

world you can SUCK IT =D

Wishes of mine

It a pretty simple concept,the fact that we all wish or wonder of what could be if life was different.Its simple at times like wanting to be a different person no matter who it may be.Jealousy motivates some of these wanting.."i wish i was her" or "why cant that be me" we often stumble on these thoughts depending what a person has that we ourselves don't..[money,looks,love,talent,brains]always wanting to walk in someone Else's shoes instead of our own.
Well here my most recent what if's:

WHY CANT I BE A GUY:
Yeah i know even monkeys could write a song about his topic.Every where i go i hear songs about girls wanting to be guys...although guys never sing about this topic there many reasons....maybe they would be considered gay? I don't know society these days can be very close minded about these things.We get our period which is mostly pains,feeling sore,and ALOT of mixed emotions about everything.Our hair never wants to stay the way we want it which includes the constant grooming if i was a guy i'd shower & just leeave it at that no blow drying,hair products,straightning irons or curling irons.Make-up would not be part of my vocabulary =] and just the little things...I would LOVE to just take my shirt off no boobs to hold be back lmao.Just walk around looking like i just got out of bed and be all badass[i think part of that was from one tree hill]

next...

I WISH I COULD BE A KID AGAIN
i know im just 16 but i would LOVE to relive my childhood..i recently spent my day with my niece and nephew.They constantly laugh have NO cares in the world and they haven't been affected by the crule world...yet.Just to stay a child would be amazing,its would be like living in a candy shop =] yea my metaphors suck >.< .But i just want to be care free again.I hate when im having a great time and then it hits you like a ton of bricks somethign not so plesent and it just ruins you day.Crazy how much stuff us teens cope with these days.I would just love to worry about somethign like fiding a lost toy for i dont get in trouble or cryign abotu a broken toy.i would trade those worries for the ones i have now ANY day.When you werent affected by what happened at home because most of the time you were unaware of the fact.Best Friends was a statement it wasnt broken by stupid things before we all got our periods and got all bitchy.I would love to go bakc to a world or time when Betrayl,Jealousy,Heartbreak,Depression were just big words that had no meaning to me and i didnt even know about.

First Snow Day =]

so considering our school or the board of ed. got a new supervisor we kinda had no snow days this year....till today =]
well today began finals for the first semester of junior year[its seems to fly by SO fast]but due to the snow we get to stay home & study more...
well my mom was in a motherly mood last night makin my dad sleep on my bed and having me sleep with her.It was funny seeign my dad passed out on my pink pillows and stuff next to my carebears....
this morning i woke up to my mom on the phone saying i should have my dad take my to my sissys<3
so i check all my stuff myspace,facebook,ect. put on my most lovely leggings[i tend to wear random colored not normal ones]added on a skirt,shirt,sweat[KV reppin],coat and these amazing slipper boots =] i added on normal boots on top to keep toasty.
i got to my sisters house around 10 ish where i was given breakfast with EXTRA ketchup[i LOVE ketchup].
towards the afternoon i had pasta and now bloggin or whatever this is called =]